It's a Girl!

On Friday we had the amazing experience of seeing our baby up close and personal for the first time during my 18 week ultrasound. It was one of the most memorable and exciting experiences we've ever had. Just seeing our baby move around and all it's growing parts, put so many things into perspective. For me, the moment we got a chance to see it's face, including eyes, nose and mouth, I just lost it. Tears of joy definitely came down. Holding John's hand thinking about how six and a half years ago this month, I saw him from across a room and thought he was kinda special, and he we were looking at our baby on a screen. It was nuts, but in a good way of course.

And low and behold, after almost an hour had gone by where baby had it's legs crossed, we were finally able to confirm that she was in fact a little girl. All the urban myths were thrown to the wayside as it finally sunk in that I'm carrying our daughter (We were convinced it was a boy).

At first we weren't sure if we wanted to find out and truthfully, John still really didn't, but I just needed to and it's very hard to be in the situation of having a chance to know and letting it go by. I HATE surprises so it's in my nature to be prepared for things, including my first child. Looking back, I can see why people do wait and feel slight pains of guilt that we didn't, but in the long run I can already feel myself bonding with her more in a way I didn't early on and it's worth it to me.